Restrain

I've got this rage
flowing in veins
I comprehend
so little, all these
years with me
All these years
trying to be
myself seems
to be slipping
further away
Karmic reality
Genetic destiny
I wish I was
safe and in
her arms but
I'm far away
with my, my
obsession
I fucking hate
needing you
It seems to
fade when
I see you
smile, here
an I love you
or anything
else and I
just don't
want to
fuck this up
This soul
screams terror
like a serial
killer slitting
a trophy off
a victim and
I'm already
saying I
fucked it up
I just want
to be better
so fucking
better that
deserved
who you are
Love you
more than
words can
say, love
you more
than this
existence
Restrain