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If I'd have known
I'd let this shadow
go so long ago
A pale ghost
whispering to
moonlight's
trance, lost
my stars years
ago, flickering
light in her
life filled eyes
wakes me, a
heart thrice
it's size since
I knew her
years ago
Softest lips
I've melted
again and
again with
a memory
Just a blink
of my eye
to think of
her angelic
face and
smile, so
many years
turns out
a heart's
memory
is never
wrong

Fish Faces

Twenty ninth, third month
Anxious but happy for
the first time in years
Blush comes to face
red paints pale skin
but I always wondered
always somewhere in
my heart she's stayed
A small town setting
but our hearts bigger
than the state itself
Silly faces, glances
butterflies dancing
She's still the girl
for me, I can see
again and again
Her green eyes
still sparkle life
So pretty she's
got me on my
knees, letting all
these defenses
crumble to sand
I'd stare into
those eyes for
a lifetime and
never get enough
Future hopes
dreams come
true with a  kiss
and love yous
connected

Killzone 3 Review from a Killzone fan(A month later) 6.5 out of 10

I am a killzone fan. I did enjoy the first one and got addicted to killzone 2. I played and still own the game because I could pop it in at anytime. You can imagine mine and the community excitement with all the beta testing and news of Killzone 3. I have seen it evolve and I truly love how Guerilla Games listened to the community during killzone 2. This is why I have waited to give my thoughts on Killzone 3. It has been a month now and I feel I can be honest. First thing I'll get out right away, the menu screens are absolutely atrocious. I can not justify why they did this. With that stated, that doesn't make a game.

First off, the campaign and story are top notch. It's a bit shorter than I expected. However, with all the gorgeous set pieces and kick ass action I loved it. Sometimes the A.I. Did feel weaker in KZ3 versus Killzone 3. However, there was no frustrating moments on Elite as there was in KZ2. I must say though to platinum this one is much less of a challenge. I am addressing this review to fans of the series. The campaign is a brilliant addition to the world we know. The story was great and it is truly a blast to play through.

The graphics in the campaign are superior to any shooter I can think of. The only contender I know of currently is Crysis 2. There will be more on that to come though. A lot of gamers complained about the dark, gritty look of Helghan in killlzone 2. They have addressed this and gave us a much broader view into the planet. You have gorgeous seas, vivid jungles and other terrains that are simply breathtaking. The story fits well into the universe and the ending is something nothing short of awesome. I don't want to spoil it though especially due to the shortness. I played it through and went back through it in the same week though. That should speak volumes as I rarely do this with a FPS campaign.

With the “brutal” melee system in place it actually makes it fun to play through a few times. Be stealthy or go in with guns blazing. It's all up to you. The controls are tighter with less dead spot and I personally don't see how they could improve on them. They are perfect in my honest opinion. Keep in mind, I'm not a huge fan of the normal COD layout though. The new cover system does brilliantly and the new slide adds to the adrenalin.

Now, for the heart and obsession I had with killzone 2, we needed a bigger, better multiplayer. This is one reason I've waited a month. There has been continuous issues and patches released. I'm honestly not sure how this happened after the countless hours of beta testing allowed for this game. It is still one of the best out there and is fun to play alone but a true experience to play with a full squad. The problem now is can you get into the games, will you have lag that will ruin the experience, or will you simply be stuck on the same map over and over again. These are issues that we should not be experiencing this late into the game.

I feel GG has let it's fans down in some way after the continuous communication we had during killzone 2. Sure, all games have there bugs/issues but they were resolved. We were told they were being resolved. It is as if the development team has vanished almost completely on the communication side and the patches they have released just cause more issues. The game, when it works, is fun to play. I still do not understand why we do not have custom games but they stated(a while ago) it will be in a patch. I think GG does need to listen to our marksman cloaking being unbalanced with a machine gun. There are some other balance issues that could go into but go to there forums if you want to here all of them.

Biggest thing to take away from this is I'm not bashing Killzone 3. When it works I absolutely love it although I do wish for some tweaks and changes still. I think the fans that still have the game are hoping for this as well. I feel as somewhere since killzone 2 the community matters less and that truly sucks in my opinion. I somewhere still have faith they can turn this around but there is a lot to turn around. Most mentioned above for me, some other issues as modes and the true lack of enough maps on release. I still thought there should have been four to five operation modes but hey, we all buy dlc. It's been a month now and I can sadly say overall I'm disappointed. Frustratingly so as this is one of my favorite FPS franchises. I also felt that the development team that once communicated so well with it's fan base has completely dropped the ball. I'm hoping I can update this one day to a better review but currently I can not. It's been a true stab to the heart of this killzone fan.  

I might shed a tear but overall Killzone 3 gets a 6.5 from me. Possibly a 7 if we had better communication from GG. I'll still be on Vekta hoping they get on the ball and pull this number up higher though.

2011 APC Tour dates

Well, I was hoping for a new album release but not bad news at all. :) Enjoy if you get out to a show!

2011 APC Tour dates

You can purchase at the site :) https://aperfectcircle.com/

Announcing 2011 Tour Dates!!

Click on each date's ticket link to purchase tickets!

Sunday, May 22 Crew Stadium Columbus, OH

Wednesday, June 29 Arlene Schnitzer Concert Hall Portland, OR

Thursday, June 30 Showare Center Kent, WA

Saturday, July 02 Boonstock Gibbons, AB

Monday, July 04 Centennial Concert Hall Winnipeg, MB

Wednesday, July 06 Roy Wilkins Auditorium St. Paul, MN

Friday, July 08 Fox Theatre Detroit, MI

Saturday, July 09 Downsview Park Toronto, ON

Tuesday, July 12 Bank of America Pavilion Boston, MA

Wednesday, July 13 Hammerstein Ballroom New York, NY

Friday, July 15 Beacon Theatre New York, NY

Saturday, July 16 Penn\'s Landing - Festival Pier Philadelphia, PA

Sunday, July 17 Constitution Hall Washington, DC

Tuesday, July 19 Time Warner Cable Uptown Amphitheatre Charlotte, NC

Wednesday, July 20 The Tabernacle Atlanta, GA

Friday, July 22 Freeman Coliseum San Antonio, TX

Saturday, July 23 Verizon Theatre Grand Prairie, TX

Monday, July 25 Comerica Theatre Phoenix, AZ

Tuesday, July 26 SDSU Open Air Theatre San Diego, CA

Thursday, July 28 Gibson Amphitheater Los Angeles, CA

Friday, July 29 Memorial Auditorium Sacramento, CA

Saturday, July 30 The Greek Theatre Berkeley, CA

Tuesday, August 02 Red Rocks Amphitheatre Denver, CO

Tuesday, August 09 Stage AE Pittsburgh, PA

A perfect circle news incoming, gaming and personal rants on this Monday

First off, I'll start with a quote I've found. I'm not particularly fond of Monday. This one is no different.
Monday is a lame way to spend 1/7 of your life. ~Author Unknown hehe


I am waiting anxiously for a perfect circle news that should be released here in 15 minutes or so. If you know or don't know I'm obsessed with all things TOOL. A perfect circle, in their own right, is no exception. I feel like a kid on Christmas even hoping for a new album. If it turns out that isn't the news I might be a little sad.


Other things, I'm waiting for my copy of Homefront. I need it now. I haven't been gaming as much lately and my PS3 is getting loney. I  surely blame all things on Killzone 3. So far, I can't say I'm very happy with the issues were having and I miss the GG dev team we had in killzone 2. It just doesn't seem like they are there for us. I'm quite a bit pissed about this lately. So that's what's going on gaming news lately. Fortunately, I have King(or queen) of  the world to occupy my downtime on  facebook. If you haven't played it and are on facebook, give it a try. I can help ya out if needed. :)


Ahhh 10 minutes till the news release....


I'm going to apologize in advance to any possible readers that might see a different side of me. I'm walking down a path of giddy as of late and I'm sure that will start showing the blog. I will put a trash can out if you have the sudden need to vomit. I understand but it seems I've been bitten and smitten. All in good perfect ways although they are unconventional.


I have a lot to say about what has occurred over the weekend. The bombings in Libya has unfortunately left me with spiraling words through my soul. When I gather them better I'll try to make sure to rant, rave and bitch about what's going on. I don't truly hate a lot of things in this world but war is something that gets inside me It's beyond under my skin...it  truly is a physical pain that I get from this. 


With all that, I'm going to try to start doing more updates to the blog, I owe a lot of reviews but I haven't felt it fair to give them till most patches are complete. 


Till next time, 


Seth

Blink

Wish I could slow time down
to a stand still, to figure these
things out once and for all
Time slipping through space
faster than I can blink, I'm
waiting for that destined
design to come forward
and show me the signs
The clouds keep building
Lightning clap confusion
and thunder whispering
I'd never deserve that
life I've dreamed for ages
that love I've wanted
for too many years to
count or scrape into the
white walls on my own
This glass heart can
hope every second
every day

3.13.11

A silence blanketed me
after this car crash scene
I played along, following
through to see no future
A blank canvas sits as
these veins fill, blood
pressure flows into this
anxious being, turning
back the years to
face those heroes
and devils alike
That silence lifts
Sirens and dried red
flashing through the
lights and sounds
Sending me there
once again, where
I belong, where I
should take this
last breath chance

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That other me

staring back

in the mirror

My despise

my rage and

my lonely 

land with 

all my ghosts

I only wish

to erase it

start over

and simply

be another

me, another

person, my

lows are

highs and

whites are

blacks in

the empty

sky inside

I thought 

I'd hide 

Die inside

but I'm here

roulette wheels

spinning and

spinning with

hope and love

life and death

I wish I 

weren't me

today

me today 

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Off the cliff
I jumped
head first
praying
to not
slip too
far away
The tide
takes me
undertow
grabs my
body as
the sun's
light splits
ricochet
echoing
through
this hope
of mine
Too late
too far
to turn
back

Seraph

Flashing, connecting
million miles an hour
my head aches and
arms are filled with
scars of past and
burns of new, fiend
I great collapse
of devils chasing
this lost soul down
Thunder claps
lightning synapse
crushing my soul
with desire, admire
that ghastly glow
and disarrayed
heaven I miss
I need it, have
to have just
something, a
lost trace of
where my
light was till
I see shadows
of her wings
from the soft
moonlight
hope in her
beautiful eyes
as seasons
drift into
change

Obscured

Held down by those

wires attached by

the white widow

I need a bottle

again and again

A haze blinds

me where she

can't find me

a drunken bliss

graceful folly

I got a head

full of mirrors

past, present

and a burning

future(Addiction)

Falling out of

my own spirit

Trying to rise

again but iron

chains weigh

heavy on this

shadow I am

Fizzle

Awoke to this
embrace from
the heavens
A night filled
dark and cold
Soul tempts
me with these
thoughts and
digressions
Transgressions
interrupt these
synapses that
flutter to a
green, blue
sparkle(love)
Spiraling and
fizzling into
this new age
This new hopeful
embrace,where
I must lay
my heart out
for all to see

3.8.11

There's that part of me

thinking I'm loosing 

myself again

but another, overcoming

gravity pulling me to

an instinct, a feeling

a heart that I longed

for years ago till

this day, A fool

I feel with this silly

songs and beats

to a heart I thought

I lost so long ago

A aura, a change

in the seasons

that seem hopeful

Wishing upon

the stars and

time itself I 

beg of the gods

to leave me here

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Rose petal eyes

pat pat of this

heart I've tried

to forget, to

erase, whited

out myself

in the name 

of this hope

That bright

light that I

lost sight of

between the

shipwrecks

and lost days,

walks among

myself and

shadows light

I'd trade it all

for this beating

heart, moments

timed by a moon

shine dream land

The stars are in

focus tonight

GO AWAY

Well, I couldn't write and I still can't but I'm happier typing to music I enjoy. I breathe this shit, not emails, texts, or some masks we all display. It's always why I've been here, been alone. I find it hard, seriously fucking wanting me to kill someone, that I don't have some Chinese girls.

Drinking JD, I'm ok with that. I'm more than ok with that. I finally straightened out my pills for a few days and I really miss her. My darker days need to be phased and my hope needs a cut down. I'm still here, playing games and doing what I can to help myself. It's all I've got. I'm still trying to be happy after 31 years? fucks sake.

I think I  was an idiot and need to be open to ppl. Even ppl that hurt me. It's all I've ever wanted.

3.3.11

I've got lazy eyes
A sign of grace
and I'm walking
in shallow water
on a beach on
a planet I don't
know, vacant
and free, alone
Desolate winds
blow sands
like souls before
Dreams falling
from clouds
spiraling through
the mountains
Tear gas calm
brings me down
and I'm sitting
waiting, again
and again

TOO MANY GAMES! What I've been playing..

Obviously, Killzone 3 is still priority although I'm anxiously awaiting the patch. As much as I loved the retro maps  I can't play them for hours at time without any switching. Either way, fantastic game. I got the platinum finally and the game is AWESOME. Especially with BPC buddies. :)

Sonic the Hedghog untouched with trophies. It's perfect

PixelJunk Shooter 2 is a blast and you must play this game. Do it NOW.

I got lucky on twitter and got the First Strike DLC for COD:Black Ops. Thank you @FanboyAttack!
You can visit the site here http://attackofthefanboy.com.

I haven't played the zombie map yet but  I will say they are 4 very nice maps. I really enjoy the rooftops of Kowloon. Graphically, I have to say I'm impressed with the team on discovery. All the maps look solid and I'll review them if I get a chance.

It was an odd turn to go back to COD after this much KZ3 time. I know IW said they don't need a new engine but I disagree. Even though the new maps are nice, graphically KZ3 is so far advanced it feels like I'm playing different generation games.