Quote of the night

Love looks not with the eyes but with the mind; and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind. ~

 William Shakespeare

\m/

The Call of Ktulu by Metallica

Loving the new Disturbed album

Disturbed: Serpentine

Equilibrium

Equilibrium off this place
and now I'm just one
fucking step away
Equilibrium off again
Get us all high and
leave us to our own
vices, christs and liars
Egomaniac in us all
Screaming for our
presidents pictures
and reality tv stars
Let's fuck, spread
this virus across her
This great divide of
arrogance, hate and
pride, equilibrium
vibrates vertigo of
the blackness inside
Let's laugh while
slaughtered our
neighbors, fiends
and loved ones
Equilibrium

One of the many to come songs of the day I'm sure

Sleeper 1972 by Manchest Orchestra

Accustomed to letting people down

This reclusive I've become is  part of me. I sit here again after not going to somewhere I said I would. The anxiety started swelling inside yesterday and now I'm choking on the regret. That lump in my throat and shaking that I've gotten so accustomed too. It used to be take it month by month, then day by day but lately it's been taking it hour by hour. 

I'm honestly not so sure what's so different. I've always felt as some sort of metaphysical clock has been ticking for me. I thought that was over but it surely doesn't feel like that today. I try to be a good friend but something always tends to fuck that up for me. It's not a complaint, I know it's inside me but I can't do a thing about it. It's ruined my life in so many ways I have to ask why the fuck am I here most days?