Devolution

Listening to Sinatra
reminders of love
happiness, another
person that was
me so long ago
He sings his heart
and my soul has
slit marks of
years of ago
It was three
strikes and
now I'm here
bluer than
any night
sky I've seen
I'd wake up if
I could but a...
just one tiny
thought brings
me down again
Love was the
only thing that
quietened this
fractured mind
Now desolate
devolving into
my own ghost
Reality hits
hard, heavy
chest pain
shaking to
stop the pain
Overkill switch
became me
and now I'm
not even sure
I know what
each expression
I make truly is
besides lies
upon lies, I've
died inside